I know this blog is meant to be about my challenges after the accident and how I coped with it through Gods help. But, before I get into all those details, I feel I must share with you how my life was before that fateful day. Perhaps some of you might even relate to the kind of person that I was. So let me just start.
I am the second of two children to my parents. My mother works in the banking sector, and my father worked for a private company from where he took an early retirement. As the younger one among the siblings, I must admit, even though my parents were never overtly partial, I did enjoy a lil bit of extra love. My childhood was a wonderful phase. Loving parents, a caring sister, everything I needed and even some extras in the form of toys and stuff that most 90' kids would relate to.
Three things really marked my pre-adolescence, a computer, cartoons and cricket. I would either play or watch cricket, watch cartoons or sit on my computer. Naturally my ambitions, if I could call them that, at that moment of time was related to that. I either wanted to be a fast bowling all rounder, or a game designer. It's funny when I look back now, I never even attempted to be either.
I reached adolescence, and all the pressures of achieving something finally got to me. Cricket took a back seat, all the codes and stuff were forgotten, all I wanted was to score well in my public exams, and get a good name from my family and peers. Now this phase, where I really started to care about my life and it's outcomes was when Jesus started to become a very prominent person in my life.
Till that moment, God was always a very important person yes, but that was only when I had to make a list of important people in my life. My family kept me in the faith, but I hadn't found Christ till then, I wanted to be a good man, not really a good Christian man. I was regular to church, we would never miss a Sunday service. I was active in Sunday school, where I've won many prizes as a child in the exams and competitions. But my personal relationship with God was established only when I really needed him in my life.
As I started preparing for my exams I realised that I was gifted by God with a very good understanding. I needed very little time to learn new concepts. But my powers of concentration was too low. I would spend hours and hours with a book in hand, finishing just a few pages of what I had to study. I realised then that I couldn't do it alone. In my weakness I realised that I needed Jesus' help.
I learnt to trust lesser and lesser on my strengths and more and more on Jesus. As Paul says in his Epistle to the Phillippians " I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me ". From them on at every important phase of my life I headed to Jesus. If I had to take an important decision I prayed. If I was to take a test, conduct an event, face an interview, I did my best in preparing, mostly lesser than other people, but I transferred my burden to God. And He was with me through it all. He exalted me, gave me success in each endeavour I took.
Through every stage of my life, God was with me. I have never, not once felt forsaken. Jesus has been there for me when I needed, but the thing is, I was never there for Him. I did try to be close to Him, but it was only the challenges in my life that made me seek Him. At other times, I returned to my sinful self. Again and again Christ won over me, only for me to allow the devil to tempt me away from Him. That was the story of my life.
If I hadn't met with the accident, that is most probably what I would be doing even now. My life had entered into a pattern that I couldn't break out of. Unless something of a larger magnitude happened in my life I would never ever get any closer to God, nor would I do something for Him. I have always contemplated a situation, that after I die I would go into judgement and God would ask, " what have you done for me ? ". Now through telling people about how He has touched my life, I have something to do in the name of Christ..
I am the second of two children to my parents. My mother works in the banking sector, and my father worked for a private company from where he took an early retirement. As the younger one among the siblings, I must admit, even though my parents were never overtly partial, I did enjoy a lil bit of extra love. My childhood was a wonderful phase. Loving parents, a caring sister, everything I needed and even some extras in the form of toys and stuff that most 90' kids would relate to.
Three things really marked my pre-adolescence, a computer, cartoons and cricket. I would either play or watch cricket, watch cartoons or sit on my computer. Naturally my ambitions, if I could call them that, at that moment of time was related to that. I either wanted to be a fast bowling all rounder, or a game designer. It's funny when I look back now, I never even attempted to be either.
I reached adolescence, and all the pressures of achieving something finally got to me. Cricket took a back seat, all the codes and stuff were forgotten, all I wanted was to score well in my public exams, and get a good name from my family and peers. Now this phase, where I really started to care about my life and it's outcomes was when Jesus started to become a very prominent person in my life.
Till that moment, God was always a very important person yes, but that was only when I had to make a list of important people in my life. My family kept me in the faith, but I hadn't found Christ till then, I wanted to be a good man, not really a good Christian man. I was regular to church, we would never miss a Sunday service. I was active in Sunday school, where I've won many prizes as a child in the exams and competitions. But my personal relationship with God was established only when I really needed him in my life.
As I started preparing for my exams I realised that I was gifted by God with a very good understanding. I needed very little time to learn new concepts. But my powers of concentration was too low. I would spend hours and hours with a book in hand, finishing just a few pages of what I had to study. I realised then that I couldn't do it alone. In my weakness I realised that I needed Jesus' help.
I learnt to trust lesser and lesser on my strengths and more and more on Jesus. As Paul says in his Epistle to the Phillippians " I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me ". From them on at every important phase of my life I headed to Jesus. If I had to take an important decision I prayed. If I was to take a test, conduct an event, face an interview, I did my best in preparing, mostly lesser than other people, but I transferred my burden to God. And He was with me through it all. He exalted me, gave me success in each endeavour I took.
I scored well, far better than my preparations should have gotten me in each test I took. Right from my 10th Grade board exam, my School Finals and each semester in college. In fact for the way I studied in college I was surprised I didn't have any arrear. By the grace of God I obtained all this. I sat for two interviews, the first companies to come to my college, and again God was with me and I was offered a job in both companies. One was TCS, from the IT sector and the other Geometric, an Engineering Services firm. I chose the latter because it was the field I loved.
Through every stage of my life, God was with me. I have never, not once felt forsaken. Jesus has been there for me when I needed, but the thing is, I was never there for Him. I did try to be close to Him, but it was only the challenges in my life that made me seek Him. At other times, I returned to my sinful self. Again and again Christ won over me, only for me to allow the devil to tempt me away from Him. That was the story of my life.
If I hadn't met with the accident, that is most probably what I would be doing even now. My life had entered into a pattern that I couldn't break out of. Unless something of a larger magnitude happened in my life I would never ever get any closer to God, nor would I do something for Him. I have always contemplated a situation, that after I die I would go into judgement and God would ask, " what have you done for me ? ". Now through telling people about how He has touched my life, I have something to do in the name of Christ..
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