In many many ways, my trip to Rehabilitation Institute has made life easy on my return. Mistakes help you learn in one of two ways. You either learn by making them or you learn through the mistakes of others. I had made my share of mistakes ( letting the pressure sore develop was one of em ), so had many others who had come there. The advantage of being among such people was seeing how these mistakes happened in their lives through their eyes, how they can affect your life and how they can be avoided. While people learnt from the mistakes I made, I learnt from theirs. RI lifted much of the ignorance related to my condition. In a way that lifted a lot of anxiety and kept me away from many worries that could've otherwise given me difficulties all this while.
Till this day, I have been waiting for Gods intervention in my life, but contrary to what one may think, that isn't a reason for me not taking up some kind of assignment. I'm not saying in my head that I'll never do anything worthwhile till I receive God's healing. The bed sore is one thing that has kept me from sitting down and becoming more productive. But the major reason is that I haven't been convinced in my heart to take up anything in particular. Not doing much though has kept my mind less cluttered. It has helped me look deep within myself like I have never done before. This phase of seclusion has been an effective catalyst to my spiritual journey. I have learned a lot about my faith far quicker than I ever would've had I not been let alone for so long..
Perhaps my healing will come before I take up anything, for even by staying within these four walls for these past couple of years I have learnt much about life and myself. Maybe I will have to wait a bit longer and will find something useful to do in these days. I don't know what God has in store for me, but whatever it is, I know that it will be for my best..
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