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Before I kicked off the start of my week long abstinence from the internet, I wasn't sure of how it was going to be. Ever since the accident, since my mobility has been compromised and I'm confined to my bed, I keep myself occupied almost solely with either my mobile or with my iPad. So I had no idea how it was going to be without them.
The first day was hard. I felt as though I was almost caught off guard. I read my Bible for a duration much longer than usual, I tried to watch a few messages online, but when I wasn't doing either I felt so empty almost. I didn't know what I could do. I felt the urge to pick up my phone and start a convo with my girl, who I started to miss in this short duration. I felt like I could login to twitter, or start a game and while away my time. But with the strength of God I was able to resist.
My mum noticed the bewildered look on my face and asked me what's up. I told her during the weekend that I would be doing what I was doing so she caught up quickly. She reminded me the importance of the fast where if you're undergoing some sort of self imposed abstinence for The Lord, it was important to keep the suffering inside and never allow yourself to show others.
I always believed in the same. If you fast and show others that you're suffering for the sake of the Lord then it is a fast for the sake of men. But if you can keep all your emotions under check and put on a normal cheerful face while you undergo it, then it pleases God. So from then on, whenever frustration crept in I learnt to keep it within myself.
I couldn't say I spent all my entire week for the Lord. I didn't lock myself up. So whenever I was around people, my parents, sis and other relatives, I would just be chatting with em. But in the usual gaps during my day when I'm alone, I spent it with God. And it was quite a blessed few days.
Daily activities in solitude included reading the Bible, reading Christ-centric articles, watching Christian videos, listening to gospel rock music and the likes. I even dusted up my old guitar that I had never learnt to play properly and gave a shot at the few chords and scales I knew. So overall I could look back and tell myself that it was time well spent.
Overall it wasn't just about those seven days. Even after I finished the fast I've been able to have a better control over myself. I'm able to resist the urge to indulge in stuff that jus took a solid bite of my time. Stuff like twitter, watching cricket or football top the list. But I hope to do everything, yet with more restraint.
So that's just how my week has been. If you're one of those young people who's always looking into your phone and deep inside your heart you have to desire to look up ( to the heavens, and get closer to God ) then do give this a try. Since not many would have a whole lotta time like I do at present, you could pick a day when you'll be free from your regular work and give it a shot. I can assure you, it does make you feel better within.
Well, so that's just how my week went. Hope sharing this was useful to whoever it is that stumbles across this page. May the Lord bless you.
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